date: 20/12/2025

feeling: confused

song of the day: burning - hitsujibungaku

i’m writing this at 5am… i woke up at 4 and couldn’t sleep anymore, so i decided to work on some covers. i’ve come to realise that i feel useless if i’m not making music. of course it feels nice when people like my covers, but i don’t think it’s a requirement for me. i just want to feel productive, like i’m doing something useful. which is ironic, because my covers don’t really mean anything to anyone, except for me.

i just uploaded the teto version of my “shikabane no odori” cover on tiktok. i don’t think i’ll be able to finish the cover i was planning for christmas, but i’m trying not to beat myself up about it.

even though so many things in my life are horrible, especially right now, i feel very grateful. i’m so grateful for the music i get to cover and listen to, for my friends, for all the art in this world, for this little diary. i like having a small space where i can ramble about things that don’t make sense to anyone else. leaving something behind feels nice.

date: 16/12/2025

feeling: tired

song of the day: lovely drug - nyquist

i was hospitalized last week, but i’m doing a little better now. i returned to work today !! i’m currently covering “au revoir” by malice mizer with teto, but it’s pretty difficult, so i don’t know when i will be finished. maybe i’ll cover another song in the meantime, not sure yet.

i’ll focus on recovering and work on my songs whenever i feel like it. i’m trying not to pressure myself…

date: 28/11/2025

feeling: sick

song of the day: you are my curse - nyamura

guess who caught a cold… exactly now where i wanted to get back to working, it sucks. i uploaded the request (kiss the villain by 40mP) a few days ago and people really liked it !! i wish i had more energy, so i could make covers again. i miss it a lot, even though it hasn’t been that long.

now that i can’t use my pc much, i’ve been crocheting and reading books a lot. i’m planning to watch some movies that my friend recommended. i also need to study, but i don’t want to overdo it. just reviewing some vocabulary should be fine, right ?

i’m doing my best to recover as soon as possible, so i can return to making covers. go mirai !!

date: 23/11/2025

feeling: alright

song of the day: masshiro na doku - utsu-p

i haven’t really done much, since i have a huge lack of energy… i don’t wanna go into detail, but i spend most of my time in bed these days. even writing this blog post is a little exhausting, but it’s still fun. and i want to share my thoughts, even if nobody is reading it.

seeing people who like my work, regardless if it’s friends or people online, always motivates me a lot. i started working on a new full length cover, my goal is to upload it next week !! i hope i can do it, i would be very proud of myself.

i finished one of the requests as well, it’s ready for uploading tomorrow. i hope it’s the way they imagined it. i’m excited !!

date: 12/11/2025

feeling: optimistic

song of the day: nobore ! susume ! takai tou - kikuo

unless i get a sudden surge of energy, there probably won’t be a full-length cover this week… but ! i started working on some requests i got on tiktok, hopefully i can upload those soon. it makes me happy to make others happy, hopefully they’ll like my covers.

also, i hit 10 subscribers on youtube and almost 50 on tiktok !! i can’t believe it, it happened so fast. i’m really curious about what the future holds for me. i will continue to work hard as always.

date: 10/11/2025

feeling: tired

song of the day: -

i usually start working on a new cover during the start of the week, but i feel super exhausted today. i had some really weird dreams, so now i don’t feel rested at all. i’ll try to take it easy for today.

i haven’t decided on a song yet, but i received some requests on tiktok !! it’s always a challenge to cover a song i’m not familiar with, but as long as people like the result, it should be fine. the plan in my head is to upload one short cover and one full length cover every week. to be honest, i feel like i overdid it a bit. i’m so tired…

aside from music, i’m also working on other projects, so i don’t really know how to manage my time. i usually just work until i pass out, but i know that isn’t a permanent solution. i’ll see what i can do about it.

for now, the plan is to start working on the full length cover either tonight or tomorrow morning. i hope i can get enough rest beforehand.

date: 07/11/2025

feeling: productive

song of the day: omajinai - nakiso

guess who just got done rebuilding the site !! i worked all day again, but i don't feel exhausted at all. i'm so happy with how it turned out, it looks so clean and nice now. it's so weird. wdym i did that ?? wow.

i also posted my cover of "watashi wa ame" today and people seem to like it ! i'm really glad, i struggled a lot while making it, especially the second verse . i was actually a little nervous about uploading it, but now it's okay.

i don't have much else to say, i'm excited for the future !!